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Her : a construct

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I had this image of you inside of me - BOUND(1996)

One of the subliminal effects of being a cinema lover is that the idealism in one gets a regular dose of romanticism. I humbly worship that the romanticist in me never dies. Life proceeds through many stages of evolution, the rationalism being hyped as the epitome of the process of gaining sensibility. If one ever asks me the wonders that inspire to live and make my world surreal, cinema would be among the top threes. One just can’t name this relationship being one-sided, as it has accommodated me so well within its realm, showered love, took great care whenever indifference caused hypnotization.

The interaction of the neurons with the continuum of frames has caused synthesization of proclivity and eruption of various dream-like constructs of human forms, places and relationships. Among others, the one that catches the fancy of my imagination is the construct of “HER”. HER is not any-one cinematic character nor does a crush on actress playing that character. It is lot more complicated than “it’s complicated” status. Every character that throbbed the pump-set(heart), posses certain traits that I fantasize to be present in HER. The simplest of all the explanation of HER would be HER being the cumulation of nuances of all the characters that I fell in love while experiencing the magic of cinema.

One can raise, is HER being the epitome of perfection for you?
I will definitely pause and exclaim, “That’s a good question!”. I don’t aspire for a soul-mate to be a perfectionist rather some imperfections are enticing; but still if some, not all traits do synchronize with HER that would be an absolute turn-on, would follow up later. Will I ever be able to encounter HER, now that’s up to the destiny that I embark upon. One thing is very clear after some sort of rendezvous with the search of HER that I’ll not be putting further efforts like the ones that I must be putting up in order to achieve my goals instead. Rather I must first become man of HER dreams and let her to reach HER than just praying to universal forces to conspire to stage the meet-up. And even after the so-called love at first sight of euphoric moment, the rationality would disrupt the peace and signal the happening mere coincident. Without knowing iota of someone how we get affectionate to a stranger and start feeling that she is the one, which at present seems mere-puerile fantasization. The idealism inside blurs all the plausibility and conspire to build the queen of perfection who being the most beautiful person by not just physique but with an all-angelic heart (HEART: - when the brain being volcano erupts with lava of romanticism). To be honest, the HER of mine is the most upfront hurdle as it impel mind to cogitate. This sense of mine to analogize HER with her (had) always led to create a sense of dissatisfaction. Not a person who looks out for flaws. For me, flawlessness is next to inanimateness. I won’t like to die as a martyr to rationalism; rather I’ll love to be an unsung soldier deceased to pragmanticism (pragmatic + romanticism).

The pragmatic pole of mine signals out me loud that if I’m destined to meet HER then definitely she would be up to the same path. What’s the hurry? But the impatience sometimes takes the toll and the random encounters many a times send signals of that being the one. When the path intersects, that becomes the interesting journey to comprehend upon. The romanticist for HER then initiates the proceedings to find out whether HER outweighs her (victory of romantic pole-HEART) or her out perform the HER “construct” (rationality prevails- MIND). Might be both would embrace each other's flaws and compliments achieving unipole-pragmatic balance and peace, or, might! This so-called want for her intertwined with HER leads to an ordeal, but still it would be worth chancing upon.

"truly inspired by cinema"


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