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My Dear XYZ friend,                                                                                                 05/12/2018
                                                       

Hope you are tasting the best mutton* and the best recreational beverage and enjoying your life to the fullest. You know, today I'm going to be truthful as one could be in front of his God. Its been a long since I craved to share my flourishing thought but I could not muster up the courage or the right words and facts to support my claims. Life has changed as rapidly as the world underwent the transformation but a hell lot of things still remained the same and may so, in future too. I am quite optimistic that you have matured enough to take the compiled words as an opinion of another human being who also aspires to spend quality time with friends and enjoy life. There is nothing personal at all,  nothing. Instead of beating around the bushes, let me be straightforward. I really don't have any axe to grind or asking for favour, all I expect is to respect and accept me as I'm without judging me on my lifestyle or my tastes or beverages. FRIEND, you know we never became friend cause we had same tastes or to drink or to do a joint, the friendship cherished as of same energy which caused synergy, same dreams and without any expectation of benefits. I never ate meat and drink alcoholic beverages or smoked, and this " NO " had never been to be in good books of society or to portray self as modest or I fear to sin. Yes, there is no doubt that you being my friend know me closely but still there are a lot of shades of my life which I never shared with you as I don't like formality ridden sympathies, as they just not make person weak and vulnerable but as mocks person's situation. In short, all I am saying is that you might have been following the same lifestyle as I do, if our lives are exchanged, and I might have been doing the same hustle you are busy doing if I had been bought up in the environ and circumstances, you grew up enjoying. 

Circumstances play quite a vital role in sculpting personalities and I'm of the opinion that it is a very narrow and selfish kinda attitude if you think that eating meat and drinking makes your life cool  AF which timid person like me are missing. But let me assure you, eating beef* does not makes you brave as I have been a hell lot brave at some happening in life that you could ever be in your entire life. And I'm not exaggerating this, if you doubt my affirmation, ask God when you encounter, then there will be no iota of uncertainty. 

You know friend, I have always respected you the way you are and never judged you on anything. I don't abstain as I aim of heaven or salvation, I'll prefer going to hell and take birth again as a human than going to heaven or getting rid of the birth cycle. Because I do love to live in pain and emerge through it, to dream and embark on an unexpected journey to achieve them, to serve mother again and make sister laugh by irritating her, to live the feeling of the very first lust less love, to commit a mistake, sin and learn from them. I don't eat it because I don't like it and not because I fear conviction. There might be a few things which I love to eat but you hate, its the same way. And about drink, brother I can't utilize my mother's hard earned money for a recreational purpose which hurts her in return. Your family could have been supportive in that endeavor or might have got influenced by seeing some elder doing that stuff. Never envied you at all, rather happy that you are having fun. Stop claiming your tastes as some exceptional achievement of a child which neighbor boast off in order to make you feel inferior and less important. I got the same respect and affection for you, whether you eat/drink or not. 

My majority of childhood consists of experiencing deaths, watching mother in pain, fighting depression and emerging as a strong iron-willed lady, serving grandpa, talking with doctors about oncology and chemotherapy, when you all dreamt of your dream girl and ways to impress her. I don't claim to be a saint, a survivor or my way of life as high life. The reasons for me being the way I'm are not merely religious, timidness or no desire for fun, the rationale runs deep down. I am not at all super proud of abstinence, I'm going to remain the way I'm and continue to enjoy and spend time without any fear of getting judged and listening to sarcastic jokes. The illusionary beautiful world that your brain creates after being in induced from , mine has created and dissolved thousands of them. You get the best of your imagination with a dose, i "without". 

- #RKD



Enjoy your life to the fullest.❣ 

* inappropriate Synonymous to non-veg 

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